Quit WoW Addiction, Win at Life.

What if I relapse...again?

I am NOT the oft-heard horror story of a college student who plays WoW and starts failing classes or drops out. I never skipped school or work to play. I didn't lose contact with my friends or family because of WoW, though I may have used WoW as an excuse for my pre-existing introverted tendencies.

But when I played I hated myself. I played too much. I stayed up too late and put off homework until the last minute. My husband and I would rarely do other things with our time together. I was too emotionally involved with the game and the guild. When I would get home from school or work I would immediately head to the computer room. I graduated college with a 3.9 GPA, but I feel like I dismissed opportunities to really take advantage of my time as an undergraduate by participating in extra-curriculars or acting like I appreciated my education. WoW made me irritable, moody, and ashamed of myself.

This is my 2nd time "quitting" WoW. It's been 3 months, and I feel more than ever the strong pull to go back to the game. I am in academic limbo right now: I can't go to graduate school until next fall, and I am working at a job doesn't offer any sense of fulfillment just to pay the bills. My husband is dissatisfied with his job at the moment and also feels like all we do is go to work, come home, watch a couple hours of TV, then go to bed to rinse and repeat. We feel bored with our lives, even knowing that our future plans make this phase temporary. We feel like WoW would give us something to look forward to, however silly, and if we weren't in a serious raiding guild this time around then we could limit our playing time. Then when I got to graduate school I could quit to focus on my studies.

It sounds too good to be true, and probably is. If we started again, could I quit when I needed to? Could we limit ourselves so we don't go to work tired every day from staying up too late? Would I still spend time with my friends and family? Could we use WoW, without WoW using us?

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